neurotic Iraqi wife

They are still fighting on who becomes PM of Iraq.....I cannot fathom, that after over 4 months, we still do not have a government!!! I cannot fathom, how these useless so called politicians cannot sit on a darn table and make a decision....Do they care about their people one bit??? Do they??? Its that darn chair again...Al Jaafari stepped down but do you think any of those nominated are better??? I didnt think he did a good job but will the others be able to stop the uncontrollable killings???

We need someone with an iron fist...Someone who would put their foot down and save the Iraqis.....shoulda happened the minute Saddam was toppled....but whats the point of shoulda, coulda, woulda...the damage has been done....Gangs upon gangs are operating right now in Iraq...its a country of mobs...you dont know who is who anymore.....Mahdi militia, badr army, al qaeda, saddam loyalists, so called neighbouring arabs...oh and ofcourse those who kill just for the money....

Im so sick and tired of this...literally sick and tired....I ask myself when will things get better...when will Iraq be normal again??? Is there such hope....Can you tell me what hope looks like cuz I think Ive forgotten....And btw, thats just me talkin, someone who lives within the green zone...someone who has the luxury of 24 electricity, clean water, a somehow safe environment...This is me talkin like that, what about those who are living the reality of all this....Im not living in Iraq...I see the beautiful blue sky, I breathe the same air, Im surrounded by the Date trees, but thats as far as I get to be in Iraq....

That guy at work, the one who was sarcastic really upset me, but do I blame him for feeling this way...No way, I cant....He is right...I wander if I havent left Iraq when I was 5 how would things be...Would I still be the me that I am today....would I still be alive....I wander....Questions, questions, questions but no answers....

I just came back from the only decent restaurant in the GZ...HUBBY looked at me while waiting for our food, and said wow this seems almost like normal..dont you think??? Umm yeah it does...People having dinner in the garden...cats roaming about, mosquitos flying by....aroma of grilled food filling the nostrils...no helicopters hovering over us....no mortar sounds....Slight music coming from inside the place....the smell of the hubbly bubbly filling the air....yeah HUBBY, you know what, it does feel somehow normal....but I wander whats happening outside...Outside in the place that has been dubbed as the Red Zone.....The Red Zone that truely has become Red....Red the Colour of Blood...